Be careful what you ask for!

November 27, 2007

I asked for questions and I sure got them 🙂 To see them (questions) please take a look at the comments section of “Why is the rum gone” post. It ends with: “I lived about a half of this short life and I still have no idea who am I, what am I, what is the reason I live here and why is this all happening, and I still haven’t found one valuable thing in this world, so how can I decide or choose anything knowingly.” You can’t hear sound with your tongue, you can’t see an image with your nose, you can’t hear taste with your ear, you can’t understand god with your mind. I believe that mind is a defensive reaction to reality, it’s the little flea that I’ve described in one of my previous posts – always trying to separate itself, trying to raise walls around itself that will “save” it from reality – and then setting up to defend those walls. The flea/mind exists as a separation, as a defense. The result of creating separation is fear, fear of everything that is not the mind. All the unknown reality behind walls is scary, dangerous, unpredictable. Understanding it is a method of defense. Mind wants to know how things work, why, what they are, what they are made of – in obtaining the information mind gains control, it becomes able to manipulate the reality, to control it, and thus reduce the fear of it. Or so it thinks – but the fear never goes away, and the reality never fully submits. Why not? Because it cannot be contained in mind’s little box. Knowing God with mind is like experiencing a beautiful mansion while being locked in its closet. Does the mansion not exist just because we can’t experience it from the inside of the closet? Does the God not exist just because we can’t experience it from the inside of our little mind-box? Mind, being created as a separation, cannot perceive unity. Cannot understand it, analyze it or control it. And so can’t we – for as long as we believe we are mind. As long as we believe that the little jumping flee, trying desperately to separate and to protect itself inside of it’s little box, is us – we will never experience the reality of being god. I talked in one of my previous posts about changing perspective as the only thing that needs to be done. I believe that the whole point in a spiritual practice, in any practice of consciousness, is to acquire a different perspective. It is to see what things are and what they are not. It is not about killing the mind, overcoming the mind, getting rid of the mind, doing whatever else with the mind. It is about realizing that I am not mind. What I am is the boundless, endless, perfectly unified reality. There is no separations, no fear, no need for defense, no need to understand, define, analyze, prove. Just experience of oneself. Experience of God. Inside of this experience there is no fear. There is nothing other than me that I could be afraid of. I am everything – there is nothing that controls me, that I have to submit to. If I am God, if I am the reality and the reality is me – then the way it appears is an expression of me, isn’t it? This is another change of perspective – mind’s way of perceiving reality is as something beyond it, something that needs to be manipulated and controlled, so that mind can get what it wants. From God’s point of view – reality is simply an expression of who I am. So, for example, if I am present and open to the abundance of reality – abundance materializes in my life. I am abundance first – and reality responds accordingly. If I were my mind, however, I would say: I need money, I have not enough of it, I need to go and do all kinds of things, make all kinds of things, and get the money. Then I will have abundance. I believe that for God there is nothing to do, it is never about DOING something. It is about BEING. And this is the answer to anther question: “You wrote, you left your nasty place to find a better place to live, but it can’t be a general solution, you live in a richest state of a richest country. Can you imagine the billions of people leaving their nasty, grey cities, towns, deserts, leaving their families, quitting work and looking for something better? It would be a worldwide disaster, and your beautiful (I suppose) Ojai would be just trampled by millions of Chinese, Hindu and others (if they got visa of course).” From the mind’s point of view I DID all kinds of stuff and, as a result, achieved peace and happiness in Ojai (it is, indeed, a beautiful place). From God’s point of view, however, I realized who I am and who I am not, and reality adjusted to reflect it. I still did things, of course – but those actions were the result, not the cause. You know what they say: “wherever you go – there you are”. I don’t believe it is ever about what we do, it is who we are that shapes our reality.

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