I woke up too early. There were noises around me, water running into the bathtub, birds singing their morning songs, dogs joining in the chorus with spirited barking.
I did not open my eyes, I did not want to enter the day just yet.
In the hazy, undefined space I felt love … it didn’t feel good … I was not quite myself there, not all the way real … there was unconsciousness there, trauma …
Childhood trauma, that’s what it was.
I looked there, the unconscious place opened and drifted away and I was present, present in relationship as what I am, in relationship with what he is… [click to continue…]
Uniqueness
I can hear the word
Uniqueness
I think it
In this fog, in this soft, warm and undefined sleepiness my eyes are heavy, my thoughts rapid and insistent.
Uniqueness
Stay with this word, with the sound. It tries to escape me, but it never runs too far, never too fast, flimsy and elusive like a silky thread in the wind – a light touch on my hand, a pressure, then I flex my fingers to catch it but there is nothing there, nothing to grasp anymore and yet, before I fall back into the dark softness, there it is again … mocking … tantalizing….
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Our idea of what reality is determines how we relate with it:
Nature is not a sentient being, a partner, but a thing – we use it and discard it as we would any tool.
Once we die we cease to exist, we lose everything, we are gone for ever – so we cling desperately to this life and all we can gather right now. Right now is all we have.
People who disagree with us are wrong and, if they persist in being wrong, they become bad, evil, psychopaths – so we fight them, force them to obey and if we can’t – we kill them. We do that to save themselves from their own evil, it is for their own good.
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Few days ago I drove through Santa Barbara in the early afternoon. The sun was golden, the leaves were golden, the world was glowing with such riot of brilliant colors that I snapped out of whatever I was thinking about, and I looked.
And as I looked, as I smelled and felt the world, I realized that I am here, right now, and the world is wonderful, the life is wonderful, I am wonderful, everything is wonderful.
In this moment there was no meaning, no plan, no future or past, no need. I was not thinking, I was being, and my entire life was full and complete in this moment, because I was in this moment.
This is life! That’s what I realized in that moment: this is life.
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I woke up too early. There were noises around me, water running into the bathtub, birds singing their morning songs, dogs joining in the chorus with spirited barking.
